23w0d:
I'm still obsessed with naming you. It seems hopeless at this point. I wish you could tell me your name! I guess I just need to divine it from the universe. Are you Jonah? Jacob? Cole? Elias?

I have now developed a food aversion to everything I cook or bake. Most bizarre and most annoying. Mike says the stuff tastes fine/the same as always. I think it is bland and flavorless. Luckily mint chocolate chip ice cream still tastes good so I am not starving to death.

I feel very connected to you little boy. I don't know why. More so than when Alec was in utero. Maybe because I was so worried about everything the first pregnancy - and so focused on the pregnancy itself and all the stuff to buy - so wrapped up in the pregnancy and the having a baby thing that I didn't focus on the actual baby enough. But this time around there is nothing to focus on but you. I felt you move so early - maybe that is part of it. Maybe because now I am much more fully aware of the end result of the pregnancy, that I can focus more ton the baby aspect rather than all the other hoopla. I can't wait to hold you, snuggle you, look into your deep old man eyes and wit to hear your stories when you come into this world.

I have terrible inner thigh pain and rear butt pain for some reason this time around. My legs turn to rubber bands and my rear is being pinched. Most painful! I hope the yoga class can help this out....

I am starting to freak out about your birth. I keep visualizing you being born and it's beautiful. But in my heart I am so so desperately afraid something will go wrong and you'll get stuck. We were lucky with Alec and because he never descended he wasn't stuck. I'm worried you'll get so far and not be able to get any further. And I could never live with myself if something happened to you because I wanted to try for a natural birth again. I just can't bring myself not to try though. Scheduling your birth through c-section seems so unnatural. I really want this to work for us baby. I guess we'll see what happens as the due date gets closer and what the doctor thinks. The yoga classes and the exercises Danielle gave me should help prevent you from being posterior which was the main problem with Alec's birth. If you are posterior, I don't know what we'll do.

I wonder what you'll look like? Another blondie like your brother? Or dark. Can't wait to see you baby.

24w1d:
You are kicking me something fierce as I right this. Such funky jabby kicks - they sort of make me nauseous. It's so tickly! Your big brother has been trying to squish you lately - he is getting more an more upset that my lap is quickly disappearing. He spends most of our storytime trying to get comfortable on my lap. But he does love you so - he is always kissing my belly and tickling my belly button and he says "hi baby brother - wake up!"

I still have a food aversion to most things I bake. So bizarre. And so annoying.

My legs are still killing me at night, other than that not too much else to report. I am getting increasingly larger though, I think people are always surprised when I tell them I'm not due until May.

24w6d
Well today was not a good baby day. Had my glucose test this morning. I failed my glucose test with a score of 176. So I have to have the 3 hour test soon (and I hate drinking the orange stuff, it really churns my stomach - ugh). But the outcome is pretty much a given since I had the gestational diabetes with Alec. Plus I am measuring 28 weeks and gained 10 lbs in the last 4 weeks - not a good sign.

I am so worried that maybe I screwed up here and you'll be a big baby and I won;t get to have the VBAC. I'm sorry baby! Hopefully it's just because my dates are wrong, which I think they are anyway. We'll see. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for us.

Other than that the appointment was noneventful. Your heart rate was 140 (low for you), my BP was 103/60, and I am up almost 30 lbs. Ack.

I asked the midwife about the terrible pain I have been having in the left underside of my belly. She didn't seem too concerned and said it was probably stretching ligaments. I hope that's all it is, but I don;t remember this with Alec. Such debilitating, can't walk, want to cry pain. Add in the reoccurrence of hot spots and I want to cry. So much pain! And now I can;t even drown my sorrows in mint chocolate chip ice cream. So cruel. Especially as it seems to be the only thing that quells my heartburn. *sigh*

Tonight was our first birth class. I was a bit apprehensive but I think it will be good. It;s a bit touchy feely perhaps for your dad, but I think it is exactly what I need. It's a small class just us and another couple. They are having their 3rd baby but she had traumatic births both of which were with vacuums so it ended up being we had a lot in common. It's almost more like birth therapy instead of class, which I have been saying all along is what I need.

25w6d
I think yoga class last week seriously helped. You moved out of the hot spot during class and right on to my bladder - of course. I had to hobble out of the class towards the nearest bathroom but at least you moved! I've been sleeping in a yoga pose and I think that is helping. So far so good - you have not returned. My belly overall seems much lower so I think you are hiding down low for now. The middle ridge is gone now too - which I have learned is an indicator of posterior position. So this is good! Stay anterior!

You've been really quiet all week. I really think that the orange glucose drink affected you adversely. I'm worried to take it again. I was feeling you move so much and this week has been barely anything. Though, maybe that is due to the position change too - who knows. But you were just kicking me fiercely a minute ago. It tickles!

We watched this amazing birth video at my birth class tonight. Amazing but frightening I should add. I don't know if I can do this baby. Ack.